therapy in session

Yes, I am the Grinch, Mother's Day version. I wrote a whiny, bitchy, grouchy post on/near Mother's Day every year. I thought about restraining myself this year because as we all know, bitterness is extremely unattractive. The problem with bitterness is that it easily borders on envy, and as we also know, envy is one [...]

I have been wanting to write about this fear of mine, irrational or not, for a long time but refrained because I did not want to offend anybody. But I can't ignore it any longer. It depresses the shit out of me on bad days. I am just going to come right out and say [...]

The phone rang. At this hour I knew it has got to be from my mother. What does she want this time? Is always my first thought. Then I feel guilty about it. More often than not, however, I get to stop feeling guilty because she is calling to add to my shopping list called [...]

Circles

Scene: The basement of an upscale restaurant in a hip Chicago neighborhood Cast: Her. And a throne of other women. It would be accurate to add "mostly young and attractive (and white except her and one other woman, though this has nothing to do with anything really...)" Being young adds 20% at least to the [...]

Fly your freak flag high

or maybe this is not such a good advice. Sigh. I have had a draft of this post for a couple of days now. I was going to write about how we should all let our hair down, show our true colors, and let our freak flags fly high. Way high. To mix the cliches, [...]

I’ve never been to me*

This post is inspired by The Bloggess' latest post I have no fucking idea what I am doing which has inspired 500 (and counting) comments so far, including the three comments I've left there... *cough cough* yes, I am a comment hog...  I have been grappling with this question: Who am I? since high school, and [...]

Where I’m From

I am from sunshine, sweat, and bricks of humid air. I am from have you eaten yet. I am from rice, salted fish, stir-fried greens, from soy sauce, sesame oil, vinegar, from ginger, star anise, and cayenne peppers. I am from concrete jungle, clothes lines stretched-across the rooftops, the smell of sun in the fabrics, [...]

  Sometimes, for no reason at all, I would get a severe attack of homesickness. Without any provocation, my heart would ache and I would get a sensation of emptiness and at the same time heaviness inside my stomach. I recognize that feeling well. It is an intense loneliness that comes from a herd animal [...]

Guilt is the trip

Dear Blog, I am very sorry for ignoring you for so long. I have not logged in for at least three days. I am so happy that you are still here. Let's see... It is 1:40 am right now. I am sad to say that I can at most spend 15 minutes with you. A [...]

Running Away

Did you ever consider running away when you were a child? I thought I was the only one until I read this post by Matt Posky, talking about his failed attempts at running away (often thwarted by his mother's playing along). Running away. When I was in kindergarten, I often wished I were adopted. (Let's [...]