“You are an asshole.” I yelled into the phone before I hung up. Because nothing gives me more pleasure and later more regret by having the last word, NOW!
When I got home with CHILD, husb was sitting in the comfy chair reading a comic book. Looking very relaxed. Which irks me more than anything since I can’t remember the last time I ever relax at home. I am such a bitch.
I looked over, he was giving me a finger!
“What is your problem?”
CHILD looked in his direction, he smiled and said, “Hey! Nothing.”
Then said, “Maybe you should leave now. Don’t come home. Since you don’t want to be home.”
After ignoring him and giving CHILD a banana, I thought to myself,
“Hey, he’s offering to watch CHILD!!”
So I grabbed my semi packed bag (I travel for work quite often) and a change of clothes, all the while thinking,
“Ok. I am going to do this now. What do I bring? Where do I go?”
How does one walk out of one’s house?
How do you walk out on your children?
“A hotel? I can Hotwire it maybe?”
I remembered that I have some free tickets from when I got bumped.
“New York?”
I remembered that I have NO family in this frigging country.
All these happened fast in less than 5 minutes.
While I was rummaging for the tickets, I found some discount gift cards for Aveda from Costco. Maybe I’ll go get a facial?!
In denial.
Big time. Since before I left aveda, I made an appointment for a massage next Friday for husb for Father’s Day.
God. I am completely insane and unstable…
This is how I got a GIRL night out, notice there is no S…
Tis 10:30 pm. Starbucks open past midnight because this one is where the cool people hang out… Maybe I will go catch a movie or two…
Parents behaving badly. Parenthood never guarantees maturity, does it?
So yeah yeah you’ve heard this before but I love your site. I am in full mid-life crisis blogging mode and just started a blog and am not sure now that I have anything new to say since yours is so effing awesome! (btw, you’ll survive; my kids are 16, 16, 18, and 19 and life with charming husband is just fine; girlfriends and flirting and surfing the ‘net have saved me.
Hey, glad you found my blog and enjoyed reading my psychotic foaming of a rambling. Esp. this one. Blogging is a great way for therapy indeed. And it is FREE! 🙂
Hey thank you so much for saying that. It's stressful to try to be the perfect parents as shown on TV. In my case, self-awareness does not seem to help keep me calm and mature, it only brings guilt afterwards. I strive to be better and fail constantly. I really appreciate all your comments! Thanks!
I cant tell how recently you wrote this article, but just wanted to say; i hope your night out went well! You sound like me when I fight with my boyfriend. It's remarkable to hear you say parenthood does not bring maturity. My parents fought when I was a kid, but you sound calmer then what I grew up with. Parents are people too; they do not have to be perfect to be good. The older I get the more I seem to realize that. Maybe it's a prerequisite for having kids of one's own.